How I am officially out of the second trimester is honestly so crazy to me and truly all of the things- but mostly just pure happiness really. Because we found out we were pregnant SO early on, I feel like I’ve been pregnant for years already. But just as it did with my first pregnancy, now the looming idea of labor is constantly in my head and still like my biggest fear, even though I’ve already done it before. I think it’s just one of those things (at least for me), that won’t ever be easy peasy to me.

So without rambling on too much, here’s what I jot down in my phone as the past 3 months passed by.

+ secrets finally out! Told family at 17 weeks, shared with the world at 18 weeks. Only one of my bffs knew at 4 weeks and that’s only because she literally asked me when she saw me the very week I found out. Carissa—- I still have no idea how you knew !! I have to say, it was actually very nice and peaceful keeping it a secret for so long. 

+ why must everything happen faster the second time around?! My back has never been in so much pain!! 

+ sleeping is near impossible between the growing belly and the constant needing to pee. Seems like my pregnancy pillow is not as cozy as I remember it being. 

+ NO idea what gender baby could be. Before Avery, I had a dream of a little girl running away from me with a pink bow in her hair. From that point until we actually knew gender, I very intrinsically knew and felt that my baby was a girl. I don’t know if I’ve been too busy to see any signs (other than my entire pregnancy being completely different so far), but I have no idea what baby might be. 

+ no cravings this go around so far, anything with a strong taste disgusts me and makes me want to throw up. I remember drinking straight pickle juice pregnant with Avery. 

+ not reading a single baby book this go around, not that I think I’m a pro or anything, just because I’d honestly rather not. Hopefully my brain has retained enough from the 80 books I bought and read before baby #1 

+ ITS A BOY!!! Complete and utter shock and so so so excited!! 

+ baby brother loves kicking back if he gets a little nudge from big sister as I’m carrying her on my hip. Don’t know if that’s a sign as to what is to come.

+ the amount of time (milliseconds) it takes me to go from oh I’m fine I don’t have to pee, to I need a toilet STAT is incredible. 

+ I’ve always known women were literal superheroes, but pregnant while taking care of a toddler? It’s actually mind blowing to me just how incredible we are!

Cheers to my last trimester babyyy!